Want

So I really want a firefly tattoo. But it's really hard to find one that's decent. I'll probably get a Kurt Halsey tattoo. And I loooove Cherry Blossom tattoos.



OMG.






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There are few people that I would die without. I mean I'd be sad if any of my friends died. Any family. But there are some people that I would literally cease to function without. I think some of it has to do with regret. Things left unsaid. The hope of things to come.

095. Change a diaper.


I woke, woke, woke on a pile of grass (?)
I'm slow, slow, slow from the week I've had
I need your smile, your tears, your every-thing

So over and over I glanced by your shoulder
Hoping to see what it's like

You know you were right
You know you were right
YOU KNOW YOU WERE RIGHT
YOU KNOW YOU WERE RIGHT

I'm laying in a bunk bed, in one of the newer cabins at my childhood camp. I never thought I'd be back here again. So much has changed. So much is the same. Kinda like me. I feel like I'm fighting the change God wants for me in my life. In a lot of ways I'm happy and content and I'm terrified if I make changes, people will leave me again. And that I'll be sad again. But then I remember that I still am kinda sad. So I'm not too sure where to go from here. And if I pray about it I know the answer I'll get. So I'm putting it off.

Ps. If you're still reading, I'm kinda lost without you :(

So I found out yesterday that I kinda sorta got cheated on. Or at least lied to. In the last "dating" thing. And I'm surprised that I'm not really hurt by it. Just thankful I didn't show up and find you fucking someone else from work.

Glad it's over and that I've found someone much better :)

She was a wreck, but he loved her. She was a wreck, but so was she.

You just wanna fix yourself. Just to break again.