dayfromhelldayfromhelldayfromhell

Okay, not really. But it has been disappointing. I'm tired of plans falling through. I'm tired of excuses. I'm tired of faking happiness.

Also, I'm tired of homework, so if that could go away too...

It'd be nice if I could go a day without embarrassing myself.

Without injuring myself.

Thinking positively, without worry.

It'd be nice if you weren't so quick to say good night.

Today I tried to do my hair like this:




Or tried to be similar. If I had a tangerine I would take a picture. But I don't, so I just look like Princess Leah.

Today is a bad day. And a better day. So I don't know whether to be happy or sad. But I'm crying either way.

So what's on the menu for this semester so far:

I hate my job. We have a new supervisor. And she's a bitch.

I already dropped a class. But that's probably a good thing. Now I'll have more time to spend with my...wait...where are all my friends? Oh they're in school or working? I guess I'll have more time to do homework and work-work and maybe be with my family. Maybe I'll just get really lazy and depressed and lay in bed all the time. Hopefully not, we'll see.

I'm single. This is probably a good thing too. I have no idea what is going on in my life. I haven't for a while. I've been trying to get medicines under control. Pain under control. Depression and fatigue under control. None of that has really happened yet. It's really easy for things to throw me off. Like a new bitch boss, or a bad break up.

I've been trying to do devotions. That is nice. I miss my sorority. I miss the fellowship with God. I miss church.

I miss...

My iPod shuffle is playing such good songs I don't want to get out of the car.