Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Words like that should make a girl melt. And while my smile reaches inside, that slight twinge I feel is nothing compared to the hollowness.

Monday, August 24, 2009

It's been a good while since I've taken a new picture of myself.

It's been a good while since I've felt good. Really good. There are good moments, but...what happened?

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

So YOU tell me to message her. I tell her I know EXACTLY how she feels. I've been in the same situation. I tell her me and you will always be friends. And now you say I shouldn't contact her again and I should just stop talking to you to. WTF? What's the problem here? I feel like my heart is broken. I feel like its never going to heal again.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

I miss Brandon's mom so much. I heard her voice on the phone and I almost started crying. What am I supposed to do about that?

Thursday, August 13, 2009

500 days of summer

I recently saw 500 Days of Summer. It was one of those movies that I wasn't sure exactly what to feel. I enjoyed it. It wasn't what I was expecting. It brought back the feelings I felt when I first saw Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I was disappointed. There was no happy ending. It did, however leave open the possibility for happiness.

The movie definitely made me think. Unrequited love. How can you find the person you KNOW is the one for you and have them not feel the same? Does this mean there's more than one person out there for us? Can we truly "fall in love" more than once?

It's the worst feeling in the world to fall for someone and not have those feelings returned. "If only he could realize that we'd be perfect together..."

All I know is, that through all the pain we've all gone through with trying to find "the one," we've learned. We may not realize exactly what we've learned yet, but eventually we may see that it was so and so or such and such that taught us what we really want.

In addition to all that...the soundtrack is excellent.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

002. Go to Seattle (okay I already have this one planned, but it’s a goal!).

011. Re-read all the Harry Potter books (1/7).

054. Make 10 new friends (1/10).
So if I say I'm a canvas painted bright red, what are the implications of that?

Friday, August 7, 2009

I'm at work. Updating on my phone. I have a few new things to cross off the list, but I don't think I can do that on my phone.

I keep saying I wanna look for a gym with Sarah but then I work and never get back with her so we stlill haven't done it.

Someone just pooped in the break room and it smells bad. Ewwwww

bye the way, I got maybe 1 hour of combined sleep last night and I'm like wide awake hyper. Can you tell?

Wednesday, August 5, 2009



I just saw your comment and went to check out your blogs, but they're private! Saaaad :(
Here's an update:

Community college still hasn't sent my transcripts and degree to real college so...I probably won't get classes for the fall term. Yay for trying really hard to stay up-to-date with school and...getting behind again.

Boys suck.

Um, boys suck again.

I'm getting depressed again. But, instead of crying all the time, I'm just really aggravated and numb to everything else. I guess numb isn't the right word. I feel everything. And it hurts more than it should. But I don't cry and I don't get angry. I just sulk.

I feel like I've lost a lot of friends.

I feel like I'm ugly.

I feel like I'm prettier than the three girls, you lot chose.

I read HP7 again. And I lurved it and want to read it again. But I'm gonna read 6 and then read 7 again haha.

If I ever stop playing WoW. I hit 60!

Sad, that's the one thing I'm excited about.