Sunday, November 18, 2007

It makes me mad to go through these spurts of happiness and sadness. Some days I just wish I could go to sleep and not wake up for a very long time (it reminds me of the days when I was very depressed). Some days I just feel content and I have a good time. It helps when there are people around and when I've got a distraction. It doesn't help that my school work is piling up this week. It also doesn't help that my new medication is causing me to have side effects.

And new problems are surfacing. I don't want to eat anymore. No, I'm not anorexic. I feel sick and nauseous every time I eat. I can drink a glass of water and start to feel nauseous. No I'm not pregnant. I've probably created some kind of ulcer. Everything just sits in my chest. I feel like my grandpa. Oh Thanksgiving will be fun.

I need to remember though that in times of sadness and in times of happiness, I must do everything with joy. Lord please give me a joyful heart.


Amber said...

I had nearly two months of that nausea from eating or drinking even the smallest thing. >:| It was dreadful. And I hate the fluctuating of emotions too, darlin. I love you!

PS. WHY didn't postsecret update this past sunday?! EEEE.

Amber said...

And when I said that I hate the fluctuation of emotions, I meant of my own. Not of yours! I love you and all your emotions! It sounded weird to re-read it...ahha.