Thursday, January 6, 2011

I think I'm beginning to feel better. Somewhat. I haven't been crying nearly as much, except in appropriate situations. I haven't been having panic attacks where I'm texting people, saying, "There's something wrong. I'm not okay." And even if I do have panic attacks, I don't want that to be what I do. I don't need to throw my burdens on other people.

I'd like to go a semester without crying in the library. I'd like to end my college experience on a happy note.

And I really want to go to England. And I don't want to let money stop me. Or time. If I don't get in for the fall because I'm cutting it so close on time, why can't I work for a year and get my Master's a year later. There's no reason I can't do that.

I'm having happy moments again. I'm not staying inside my head even when I'm with people, or feeling sorry for myself. I'm enjoying things and moments and seconds.


Amy D. said...

I'm glad you're feeling better. Please know you can talk to me whenever you're sad, happy, or anything in between. It isn't throwing burdens on other people; we all need someone to listen and be there for us when we're hurting. Hence, friendship.

In regards to England, I hope it works out for you. You're right in that timing doesn't matter. You'll get there, be it this fall or the next.